Exhuasted
I am reaching my threshold
Threshold: n. the point of collapse and crumbling down of a system.
In this case, my mental and physical state.
Tmr got PE. And im friggin tired. Shit. And mr kwok dnt accept: “im tired” for an excuse.
ARGH.
I cnt barely keep my eyes open.
And i still have undone work:
1. CMPS- tmr chiong short intro in class. Pls dnt blame me, Junhern, Cheryl and Boning. I noe i promised to do it for the grp but i rly cnt do it tonight unless you want a report with incomplete sentences and wrong sentence structures that make no sense.
2. Hist Graded Assignment – Die my hist sucks.
3. Sci prac test revision – this wednesday!!! havent revise. Shoot.
4. Chengyu test. on 23rd feb. Thats two wks more!!! ARGH i learnt but i still not very familiar. DIE.
5. Indices. One failure in class. Yay say cheese to the failure.
Omy im having a panic attack.
Now go chiong the revision. Then sleep. Then get screwed tmr.
Deep sigh and loud yawn.
Oh patrol corner with yr1s went quite well (:
Happy about that.
bye off to mug.
Optimism
After reading the guides blog posts
I suddenly feel very optimistic.
Yay let’s show the yr1s that guides rocks!
I shall be more seniorish now and fool around less.
I noe i told jenfang that i will be a super lenient senior. But now i understand that being strict is what keeps us learning and what prevents the standard from slipping.
I shall be strict when it comes to guides PT, OJ, etiquette but lax up during patrol corner. And i shall be strict with myself.
If all 5 yr1s in p2 dnt appeal out, i shall count that as my first big achievement in guides.
If they start to open up and have a change of attitude, i shall count that as my 2nd achievement.
If they start to bond within themselves, I shall noe that my job is half finished.
If they start to bond within their jie, i shall noe that my job is 3quarter done.
If they start to realise what guides is all about and willing to learn from their mistakes and are even ready to lead the 45th and 46th batch, i noe that my job is done.
Yay baby steps at a time.
Meanwhile for me i shall work on dinging boys style for 5min. I dnt want to tell them Ding boys style 5min! then i myself cannot.
And i shall work on being more initiative.
Like crystabelle said ” teach by example”
Jiayou 43rd batch (: Lead by example!
I feel better already. This is the power of a company of guides. When one feels dejected, others never fail to make her see the light and have optimism.
I hope tmr patrol corner with yr1s goes ok.
I even wrote the long note to them by hand. I copied the long note for 5times.
I hope they sense our sincerity.
(: Tomorrow is a new day. As mrs koh always says, ” it can only get better.”
(:
You don’t control Life, Life controls you.
Today is a disappointment.
I was anticipating this day since beginning of yr and now i feel very disappointed and sad.
In class for some reason i did something. Shant say what. Its sad to bring it up. I will probably start doing that thing again when i stare at the thing that made me sad. Luckily tinglye’s blue elephant cheered me up. So cute.
Then Guides… oh my god some of them hates us leh. Keep giving off this attitude and like discussing appealing to other cca. Like we plan activities for them they like dnt talk to us and keep within themselves and one of my junior was like keep givingme this sian look and rolling her eyes at me constantly.
And she was totally sianing me when i told her to give guides a chance when she talked about how stupid guides are with her totally sian and rude friends.
Omg i m flaming. Hope won’t hurt anyone’s feelings. But the thing is they hurt my feelings.
even if they dnt like Guides, they can be POLITE and keep that to themselves instead of suaning us constantly. Thats extremely rude and hurting you noe. Very. Im very hurt.
Even when i joined guides when my mom wan me to quit CO I didnt do that right?
Yes I thought that GG is a boring CCA that only do drills, i admit. But i din like show face at my first jihe wad. I even try my best during PT. I even cheered. I thought, You dnt control Life, Life controls you.
I accepted that guides is my cca and i tried to love it. I din maintain that attitude and i did what mr sng said ” Give your cca a chance whther you like it anot”.
Really, attitude is everything.
And i think they are quite rude. They despise us dnt tell it to our face when we are being nice to them.
I hope they learn to love guides. And if they alr have attitude problem NOW, whats going to happen when the hiongness commence?
I din even start shitting when my first jihe is PT. I was even more determined to continue in guides.
Omg maybe the yr3s were disappointed in us when we are yr1s. Haiz.
I hope that she will think about what i said about giving guides a chance. You noe, Yiting actually inspired me. According to michelle i think, she was also in CO then she came here or smth. And look at her now. Patrol leader leh. I hope that those yr1s who cried bcos they are in guides, will start giving us a chance.
Tears dnt solve everything. Instead, crying bcos you din get smth you want is actually quite childish.
Crying bcos of failure is fine. It makes you vent your feelings all out then you will start piaing. Crying bcos of separation is okay, cos relationships are impt.
BUT crying bcos of not getting what you want, it is an evidence of immatureness.
Learn to accept everything. You dnt control life, Life controls YOU.
Monday we are going to have yr1 and 2 corner i think. And we are going to have a little party before teaching them stuff. If they got AP/ roll eyes/ refuse to share the drinks, i think im going to emo the whole day. Possibly cry myself. Im crying becos im sad for them.
Are they going to stay miserable forever just becos they din get into the cca of their choice? Or are they going to see the bright side and start being optimistic about it?If its the first choice, im sorry for them. Rly i pity those who have a chance to change their life but refuse to do so.
Haiz. Maybe the yr3s also were disappointed in us. Im sure they were.
Lets talk about happy stuff now. My neighbour is in Guides! And she is planning to give it a chance though shes scared of PT. I LIKE HER SPIRIT! too bad she isnt in p2. P7 is lucky to have such nice juniors.
Maybe p2 have some nice juniors too, but i was too hurt by one of them to notice.
okok revert back to the happy part. ignore the sad part.
Peifen is a nice girl. She likes her own patrol mates alr. And guides isnt even her first choice.
Her choices are same as mine: CO, Symphonic Band, Guides and SJAB. Omg. But still she decides to ACCEPT HER LIFE AND GIVE HER FATE A CHANCE.
Why cnt they be like her. Haiz.
Lol theres this guy sitting bside her whom she dnt rly like. Sounds like randy. Violent, dnt like grp work etc etc, but is a gd listener.
haha another randy. Told her that she shld give him a chance to grow up.
See, Randy changed le. Become much nicer and hardworking. Though smtimes will still slack. Dnt we all do that. And he was copying notes during Hist too. I was very surprised.
Randy rly changed. I think i like him better now.
Pls dnt think crooked. In case you are. Referring to Gajing if she happens to chance upon here.
Haiz.
I hope they will start integrating into guides ASAP and give guides a chance.
If not, appeal all they want.
I rather have 10 dedicated juniors than 36 juniors who hates guides.
Din they thought of our feelings b4 they make those comments?
k whatever.
Maybe our seniors were disappointed in us too. They are.
Only truly understand their feelings when we have juniors ourselves.
You dnt control life. Life controls you.
Random thoughts
Hi welcome to the post of Lee Chin Yee’s random thoughts.
1. Happy bday tinglye! Bananas are your fren!
2. Triple S is considered an alliteration
3. LA is now my favourite lesson cos ms chan rocks. And war literature is interesting! LA LESSON TMR!!!
4. Randy is a responsible lab partner. No sarcasm intended. Srsly.
5. Julius now and Julius then is a world of difference.
6. Aha i own u in arguing crap and coming up with crappy ans to crappy qns, junhern. Admit defeat.
7. Hashbrowns are bad for my health but still… im addicted to them.
8. Chipmunks are cute. Esp theodore.
9. Juniors coming in tmr! First jihe as a senior to juniors! First jihe jitters.
10. JY 43rd batch! no longer youngest le! must set an example!
11. Im proud of myself for my hist hw.
12. Hungry for hashbrowns.
13. Yay hist docent training commencing!
14. Stockton smell wafted through class today. Ahh the fond memories. Sarcasm intended. A little.
15. BActeriophage
16. Lysis
17. Sci investigative proposal 14 days to be due!!!
18. CMPS still no progress. Baby steps at a time.
19. Deborah is Li Hui-ing. With her new hair style. I like her new hair style. Makes her look more mature. And taller (:
20. Random thoughts are kewl.
Bai ppl.
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Today we had a slack jihe. Oh nose. I cnt hardly recognise myself. Im actually craving for PT. Now im at home and wahts weird is that i dnt feel any muscle ache. Oh my God this is so extraodinary.
Lets leave the jihe’s wonderful contents to the last.
Lets talk about class today.
One word: Yawn.
Lol joking. Ok we had geog which is cool Mr Lee is such a great teacher cos he has a sense of serious humour (OXYMORON!) and his handwriting is so damn nice and he is a teacher that likes to categorise stuff one the board so wad he wants us to know is not messy and scattered all over the board: itswritten neatly and systematically for easy reference.
I LIKE MR LEE!!! I cn actually copy notes without going HUH + blank look.
Then PC. I wasnt paying attention. I was doing something which i cnt reveal or it will spoil the surprise for sb who i tricked. Deborah will noe. Oh got my mortal. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA look at the name i want laugh. Actually i dnt rly like this angel mortal stuff. Cos everytime i play it i will be such a nice angel that spams the mortal everyday with notes and reminders, then ironically my mortals always dnt give my anything or do anything.
Irony of situation.
Not that im conplaining though. I am just musing over the irony of situation.
Then recess
Then LA. Epic. Oh the test on lit devices is so cool.
Give a sentence with one eg of alliteration:
Amanda is reffered to by her friends as “triple S” – Slow Short and Stupid.
Triple S you r so useful in my test. I hate you 
Then maths. yawn
Then hist. Mr Zein is so cool. Omg i like evil teachers duno why.
Then JIHE!
ok for ppl not tolerant of rantings of the coolest batch of guides ever, GTFO. In case you duno wad GTFO is, you are a nub and should scram too.
Jihe was slack. We packed gifts for the VIPs coming dhs nxt wk.
That part is boring. Skip.
Then after packing we were dismissed and as our seniors are having OJ but we are slacking, we decided to have a Jie PT.
YAY. Ok we did circuit pumping till 400, then ding 4min boys style. Me and deb kua so we do maboleh for forfeit. Then we sabo Amanda cos its her bday this Sunday. We made her say “im sexy” and made her write *** ***** with her body and also made her have a serious bimbotic convo with Zephania.
Omg EPIC. Poor amanda. My foot
I hope my bday will be forgotten, if its the case.
Oh yah its already forgotten by my class. I told the whole class my bday is in July in Malay language and no one bat an eyelash.
I feel forgotten. But who cares.
Oi mad orchids my bday i want 40 hashbrowns. Fried ones, i dnt want frozen ones, Pohkah.
Then we took a formal shot. Wenlin serious face is funny. Oooh another oxymoron. Or maybe not.
Im hooked on oxymorons.
Then we took a retarded shot. And then a nice 43rd gesture shot. Yay 43rd batch rocks.
Oh i made deb so happy today, i posed as the shortie in a phto with her. Aiyah, short ppl are easy to pls. Right Deborah?
no offence though.
Oh yah bullying deborah is fun. She is so insignificant. Lol i bullied her b4 jihe.
And she said im nice.
HA.
kk off to mug.
6a-ing again
People say you start forgetting your p6 class in yr2. But i dnt find myself doing that.
Like when i see yuhong every morning when he gets off at my stop where i wait for 14, i m still quite happy.
And ytd i met huiwen and matilda when walking home from tanah merah, i was high. Yes finally meet ahs ppl along tanah merah walkway(:
And hope to see shangle soon. Rongrong says he voice break le. 0.0 but still the same retarded person. Yay(: Shangle made my p6 life very retarded. Lol. hes the best table mate ever. Shant harp too much about the retarded stuff we did in 2008.
oh yah huiwen you aiming to be as tall as Yaoming is it????
LOL
LA test today. Quite…ok lah.
Hist and geog rocks.
Science too. But mrs chu i miss you. And i miss sugar (pronounced suuu gar). haha.
CMPS so far no progress. GAH. Youranus still harping on how boning is a traitor -.- srsly we are in SECONDARY school, youranus. Whats wrong with interclass efforts lah. Last yr i helped you with RS by doing your survey, does that mean im helping 1K or smth? Am i a traitor? i dnt c u complaining.
Moods are easily affected
Ytd my mood experienced a stable equilibrium with first a positive feedback, then a negative one.
how fun im applying geographic terms to my everyday life. Mr Lee will be so proud.
Ytd I was super high during jihe. More high after jihe 
WE ARE THE MAD ORCHIDS!
Yay i managed to ding boy’s style for 3min35sec. For those of you out there, you might go CHEH 3min only… but for me its a gd improvement from 30sec.
Not so pathetic anymore but still pathetic though…so jy lor.
I so optimistic (:
Ytd jihe was quite fun actually. I like the monkey bars station. But sadthing, i studied notes for basha and roman chariot but then forget everything promptly during the activity -.-lll So its obvious i wasnt much of a help, as always.
Oh yah we made chai ning pissed. Cos we misintepreted her instructions. And then she got very pissed. oh nose.
sorry.
After jihe is fun(:
We goofed around and kept calling Amanda “triple S”.
Short, slow and stupid.
She said shes Smart smart and smart. Pukez Lol teasing patrol mates is so fun.
We are currently planning on how to introduce ourselves to our coming juniors.
So far it’s:
Hi we are the Mad Orchids! Welcome to the Orchid family! You all can be the sane orchids since the mad title is already robbed by us!
This is the Triple S! Amanda! She’s Short Slow and Stupid!
This is Pohkah without Ice/ Pohkah with eyes!
<insert shanice title not yet thought of>
<ditto for danna>
And im Chinyee and triple C: Clever Charismatic and Cool
Pohkah and Amanda and Danna and Shanice : PUKEz.
LOL. How fun.
Now they are planning to officialize the triple D for me: Dumb, Dirty and Disgusting.
Which is totally not me so i shall object.
As for amanda, she is short. So the triple S still kind of stands for her.
But me? Dumb Dirty Disgusting? AHEM so not.
I ABSOLUTELY REJECT THE TRIPLE D!
We were retarding on 158. At first i wanted to take 30 with pohkah. But then the lazy person was too lazy to walk there. She wanted to take 158 and alight at 30 stop.
LAZY BONES POHKAH.
Being the nice person i objected strongly and said take 158 all the way to aljunied.
Which we did.
Amanda was pretty interested in Julius. She kept arguing with him why she shouldnt sit. Lol im twisting the facts alittle. And maybe exagerrating. Anw she sat down. Then yimin came. and said Oi you so skinny one person occupy 2 space arh?
Yimin made a valuable contribution to the S title. I hereby present QUADUPLE S: Short slow stupid and selfish.
HAHA.
I look forward to intro time. We shall freak our juniors out.
cos we are the Mad Orchids.
And ytd our seniors askedus to sing one improvised song. We sang Chaining to be Orchidites.
Its supposed to be Training. But the yr3s changed it to Chaining in honour of Chai Ning.
Chaining to be Orchidites. kewl.
And the yr3s had their fair share of fun passing down baoshu when chai ning is standing in front. “one stupid chaining, two stupid chaining …”
this yr our turn. Amanda wants to be QM Pohkah too.
So.. it will either be
“triple s one triple s 2…” “One Patty two Patty…” (erherm private joke)
For pk it will be
“Im thirsty one,, im thirsty 2…” or “J**** one, J**** two” (another erhem private joke)
I cnt wait.
As for me i shall be contented at standing at the back so i cn pass down funny msges.
I want to be PS (: So whoever is PL in yr3 will suffer my idea of fun (:
Ok ppl are getting tired of my guides talk. Who cares. If you are tired of it, then SCRAM. Gtfo.
Anw when i reached home, my mood took a positive feedback. Watched Hua Mu Lan and cried like mad. The story so sad.
ppl die in wars. Im sadded now.
ppl should watch the movie and have a real idea of courage.
Tired
GAH im tired…
i fell aslp on 14 today and nearly missed my stop home.
And i just finished the geog first draft for the graded assignment.
Julius if i am the reason for the screwing up of that assignment, pls dnt hate me 
i dnt mean to screw your grades too
Im tired.
tmr got chengyu test.
shit
tired.
off to slp now.
tmr still have to pick kindlings. Cos we wasted our time talking and having fun. GAH
parental nagging. bb
Friday 15/01/10
that was a sad day.
very sad.
i felt the injustice of attire check.
“Whoosh!” went the wind and all my stray strands of hair went PHOOM! and fly out. Then mr teo marked me. OH THE INJUSTICE. i missed part of geog lesson.
Guides was ok. Jiheed in Guides U (oh yah sb unpset the whole bottle of Sabrina’s Brassho) and did role call. Role call attire check i passed. OMG mr teo is stricter than our seniors.
Then mass changed into coy tee. Luckily no guoshi, so no pumpings Got prize-presentation
Then we the 43rd batch got kind of scolded by our seniors (scolded is too strong a word. I cnt find an appropriate word. Something more of concern and worry). They said that we are the bridge to the yr3s and yr1s.
And they asked whter we are ready to lead our juniors I srsly duno. Like, when i think of that i think of my seniors caring for us. Let’s take ChaiNing for eg. She’s a good senior and always take the more xinku job so we no need be so xinku. And if you ask her a qns, she cn answer. And also the other seniors. They can always clarify our doubts.
Are we ready to receive our juniors, the 44th batch?
Can we really demonstrate the true attitude and spirit of Guides? Can we make sure that these attitudes will continue to be passed on the the future DHS guides, like how the 1st batch had succeeded in passing the spirit of guides to us? Can we continue to be one of the best company in Singapore?The most important qns (to me anw): will the whole company kua at the hands of our batch?
._. I HOPE NOT.
43rd batch jiayous. Lets work tgt as a batch so we can be the best seniors to our coming juniors.
First we need to be more initiated.
Second, we need to be 0% slack
Third,we need to cheer more so as to show the yr1s our spirit.
Forth, we need to master all our first-aid and survival skills.
Fifth, we need to kaolong more so the juniors will follow our lead.
4ever Uni3rd.
Thats what we are supposed to be, sisters.
I shall be more on during guides from now on. No spacing out, no whatsoever. Yes I shall.
Ok then we got our badges. Thrift, speakers (WE DNT RMB DOING IT.), total defence (erherm i din do it. i wasnt even in guides at that time. So why give me?), and the music one.
Yay 4 badges at one go and now our sleeves wnt be empty:)
Crowded sleeves are so cool. Like in the photo attched to the note that teoee esther and fiona had given us at passing down, their sleeves were like 0.0 crowded. How cool
Then patrol corner. We revised how to tie a flag pole. Let me rmb for a while.
um two mickey mouse using masheng, then loop the la sheng in the loop at the top and attach flag using ba zi jie. secure the pole to ground using the masheng. the upper pole must face the company flag. Flag, pole and flag kit cannot touch ground, or… CONGRATS PUMP LIKE SIAO!
the we had angel and mortal. I shant say who my mortal is. Obvi. And we wrote patrol songs. I like Cassandra’s handwriting.
Went home. and then for a reason that only one person noes, i emoed like siao and cry. Thats my new record for emoness. Oh my god. But whatever. I m having amnesia now so i dnt rmb whhy i emo. I hope the amnesia is permanent and will not POOF and disappear when i go to school tmr.
And now louis is having his taekwondo grading. pass or fail? hard to say. he’s in the advanced part now. omg. jy brother.
kk i have to go.
and it’s still quiet on the frontline. Theres no one online now at this early hour.
Lessons
So far lessons are great! but i say that at every start of yr. and when the tests and graded stuff starts kicking in…
@#*&!$%
LOL but i hope that i will maintain my “gd student” “no slack” “take every single notes” streak so far for the rest of yr.
Its quite hard you noe, to do the above three.
I felt like slacking this afternoon, like, jump straight to bed and sleep. Too bad i din. i went to do some maths. Oh nose. now im tired. But have to do the cl presentation…
argh.
But my new teachers are nice:)
Maths: add one more teacher, ms poh
Ms poh rocks. she is this damn evil teacher that likes to challenge ppl and also act dumb to our instructions. But i still like her. Cos i am weird. I like evil teachers. The more eviller, the more i liker the teacherer. Now we have two maths teacher, so i cnt sleep with eyes open (translation: daydream about stuff). Cos one teacher teach, one teacher prowls ._.
Geog: Mr Lee Seng Lee
Ooh he rocks. Most interesting geog EVER. Cos i took 5 pgs of notes. and thats only the first lesson. And he keep doing mindmaps. I LIKE MINDMAPS. No offence to mrs chin, you rock too. Happy maternity leave! Geog geog geog. I cn hardly wait for tmr’s lesson:)
but maybe when we start doing LORMs i might go $*%&@! geog.
haha hope not. I shall maintain an enthu attitude in all subjects. (reason: participation=3%of CA marks 
)
LANGUAGE ARTS: Ms Chan
Ms chan is quite ok. At first,all the negative feedback…but actually shes quite enthu abt teaching us. And i like a teacher who is enthu in work:) And so far i found myself looking forward to her classes, cos got grp work and role plays:) But maybe, later in the yr she will show her bad side. Duno, maybe? Hopenot. I want to continue liking LA:) (i did not so well for LA last yr cos i slack and daydream in class. So damn boring)
PROPAGANDA! WAR WAR WAR!
yay LA rocks. So far.
Science: Ms Tan
I prefer mrs chu… i want mrs chu back…
HCL: li lao shi
as always, li lao shi is so vibrant (in speech, actions, words, teachings.. and her CLOTHES!)
“hi lao shi, your shirt jin tian xiang BUTTER (yellow)”
“hi lao shi, ni shirt jin tian xiang CABBAGE (green)”
“hi lao shi, ni jin tian de yi fu xiang lan tian”
“lao shi, ni de yi jin tian shi brinjour (purple)”
Hmmm what color will she be wearing tmr??? Wonder wonder…
argh tmr attire check for guides. Mass change. Oh nose. I fear. I dread. :0
kk go le, yawn.
